Now that I’m in my last semester of college, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about my life.  This class has been a great tool so far to let me get my feelings down, and writing about Treesville helped to bring the past to life.  I’ve also been having mini panic attacks, mainly when I think about the most daunting thing in my life right now: the future.  Everyone always talks about how college is the best years of your life, and then how it’s great to get out into the real world and start your life.  How can college be the best years and then you have to give them up to go out to the real world?  All I know is that I’m nervous about what the future holds for me.  I know I’ve been prepared in every aspect of my life, but I still worry.  Will I be able to find a good job?  Will I be able to find one that helps me pay back the mountain of loans that I have taken out to come here?  Will it make me happy?  My questions aren’t all about a job though.  My boyfriend Andrew and I will have been together for 5 years this May, and we’ve already talked about our plans together.  That doesn’t worry me in the least because I know we’re going to have an amazing life together.  What I question though is when will we get engaged?  If we get engaged soon I know I won’t want to get married for a couple years until we’re both financially secure, but will we still be too young?  Why does society look down on young people getting married?  And what will our families think when we move in together?  I don’t understand how society can still look down on two unmarried people living together.  The future is so uncertain, as is everyone’s, but it’s rushing towards me faster then I imagined.  I’m half dreading, half anticipating graduation and my first steps into the real world.  I wonder what differences in challenges today’s college graduate faces vs. those that graduated 20 years ago?  Or even 10 years.  Does everyone look forward to graduating and am I odd?  Or do others feel apprehensive about the changes that are coming?